The last year has been strange, painful, difficult. I am grateful for another year of life but it hasn’t been easy. A year ago my dad passed away (on August 24th, 2019) and it was right before I turned 50. This is my second birthday without him and there’s a lot to unpack there in future posts.

I am doing all I want to do to be there for others but I have to focus on me too. Self care is a must for the long haul. This means not holding what I am feeling in.

Turning 51 is weird. Chili Davis said Growing old is mandatory; growing up is optional and I agree with this. I still have that child-like wonder about things and as a person who has some years on him, I have some jaded cynicism. Growing up is indeed a choice.

In this next year of living I don’t know what will happen. Life will come at me and I hope it will be better than the last couple of years. My friends I hope to not be a downer but no promises. We shall see.

Rest in power Chadwick Boseman. Thanks for your talent and the inspiration. Gone too soon.

Sometimes the phrase “it is what it is” is kind of an excuse but sometimes its reality. For me life is what it is and until things change its what I have to live with. Life isn’t always happy unicorns and narwhals.