A thrilling time is in your immediate future.
From A Fortune Cookie
A thrilling time is in your immediate future.
A thrilling time is in your immediate future.

Today I had my annual review at work and it was a positive one. However, there is room for improvement. In any line of work there are challenges to do more and get better. I do have some things to work on so that I can continue to be a leader and producer in my department. Time to roll up sleeves and put nose to grindstone. Time to make the calls and hope for some answers.
Happiness is a deeply personal thing that is so fluid and dynamic. I haven’t been truly happy for a long time. Sure I have had moments of joy but nothing long term. People worry about me because I am not full of happy awesome sauce right now and I appreciate their concern. Don’t worry about me. I am not suicidal or anything drastic.

The year 2019 took a lot out of me and I don’t know when my emotional tank will be full again. I suppose it takes a year of recovery to get over a year of hardship, emotional stress, and the death of my father. I am very much a work in progress. People who go through this come out different on the other side and I can accept this.
Believe me, I am grateful for all the support. It’s going to take a while. Being my old self might not be what is in the cards.

Have a great Saturday everyone. Have something good that keeps you going today.
The fellowship of true friends who can hear you out, share your joys, help carry your burdens, and correctly counsel you is priceless.
Ezra Taft Benson
When ones job depends on the cooperation of others it has its own unique challenges. People are so random in how they will respond. Nothing is truly predictable anymore. Like the cliche says the struggle is real. Just do the best you can and hope for the best. Yes those are 3 cliches in a row but the sentiments are needed to keep one going.
Hang in there everyone including me.