I left my phone at home this morning heading out to breakfast. So I was without it for most of the morning. We survived as a civilization for thousands of years without them so it should not be a big deal. One thing this does is forces you to interact with others, to pay attention to what you are doing and frees you for things like real life conversation. There is a feeling of vulnerability without it because if an emergency were to take place it would be difficult to get help or to notify ones family/friends. Sometimes forgetting a phone is a good thing while other times you don’t know what to do with your hands.
There is a college football game happening in my hometown at the time I am writing this and I am not there (duh because I am writing this post). A couple years ago I would be all over it, going down to support the home team. Today home is the place I wanna be most. In full disclosure I do have some depression issues going on so that has something to do with it. Perhaps its fatigue too because I expend myself during the week. This morning I did go out for breakfast and to Walmart with family and when I got home I took a nap. No doubt I have changed and perhaps what gives me joy has changed. At home I am blogging and watching coverage of Hurricane Nate instead of a football game on TV. Maybe I am not like me because I am not like me two years ago. It’s strange how we change and the things that give us pleasure change too. Strange indeed.
Be you is a easy thing to say but hard thing to do. Unfortunately there are expectations that others have of all of us in order to fit in. Life is tough enough without having to play a role that doesn’t seem genuine or authentic. It’s kind of nice to be in a space and place where you can just be who you want to be without anyone demanding you play the part you don’t want to.