Happiness is a deeply personal thing that is so fluid and dynamic. I haven’t been truly happy for a long time. Sure I have had moments of joy but nothing long term. People worry about me because I am not full of happy awesome sauce right now and I appreciate their concern. Don’t worry about me. I am not suicidal or anything drastic.

The year 2019 took a lot out of me and I don’t know when my emotional tank will be full again. I suppose it takes a year of recovery to get over a year of hardship, emotional stress, and the death of my father. I am very much a work in progress. People who go through this come out different on the other side and I can accept this.
Believe me, I am grateful for all the support. It’s going to take a while. Being my old self might not be what is in the cards.
Take care, hope you feel better soon!
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I❤️U
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I hear you ❤️
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I’m truly sorry for your loss. I know some years can be bad and some can be just rotten. Hopefully, better days ahead.
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Stay chipper! You will get back to your old self soon. It takes time to heal.
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Thanks for sharing your story . I’m kind of feeling the same. It’s a daily process , but we try our best to find it in our own way. We can’t heal our loss & heartaches over night , not even in years but I know we will one day. For now, I accepted that it comes in moments & that’s okay & I’m thankful . Take care & I wish you all the joys & blessings 🙏
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